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backed=X

2007-01-16T03:45:00.000-08:00

i am backed on blogger or at least say i came back after a long time
now listening to my fucking mother nagging at me. super irritated
alot of things happened while i had not blogged
cases of loads of things
i have being thinking over and over about stuffs that are bothering me like mad
first: prefects; should i quit or not? that's a peer pressurised question; i am going mad over it; pls help me decide)):
second: work ; should i just work once a week to cope with my work in school? or should i just dont care and work till i become very good in it; what's this world becoming to for me.. am i mad or what
third: school work; aiya super stress all over everything all madness teachers friends fellow brothers all mad
i might just fail all my subjects one shot all lah die on the spot like madness!

what is this 'ideal' world of mine becoming to? should i quit school quit work and escape toa place far far away.. so far no one will know who i am.

so far godbrothers have not irritated me or whatsoever
friends some here and there
teachers some here and there but mostly no.

i just feel like ending it all once and for all
shut my mouth up; jump and next; i may meet paradise
but that's a thought not a reality
i hope i am just in a dream where i am still sleeping and dreaming
wake me up only when i finish all the horrifying things that happened

`alvinkang;

jon's hse..

2006-10-21T23:01:00.000-07:00

lol now i am at jon's house and i am offically announcing my internet is not gonna come back sooner xD so pls do not bug me bout it=/
alvinkang;xD

happy happy : D

2006-10-12T07:50:00.000-07:00

YO. so happy. finally got back my internet. the happiest man on earth; yeah and i am now wondering what to do when i am to happy, nyeh. xD
ahahas patching maple. trying dl audition , then best of all; EXAM'S OVER!!! HEH HEH HEH!~

lalala~ i shall blog more when i am not that tired.and yeah today's tiring;.
`alvinkang;

2006-09-06T04:44:00.000-07:00

Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is

Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening now
Can't you see something's missing?
You forget where the heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay

Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life, what's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay
It's okay
It's okay

empty apartment.
yellowcard
lights and sounds 2oo5

today!

2006-09-05T05:51:00.000-07:00

a trip made by me=/ partially; hahas
AT 11AM! dhoby ghaut mrt station=/ lols. and ian and me met earlier. then we met chan . so we 3 go to arcade till 11am

hahas girls all damn what one=/ go the funny shop at lvl 5 . hahas=/ diaos made me chan and ian go all the way downstairs. xD funny ah
we played arcade for like 10mins=.= (i am the only one!) then have lunch , and go into yamaha. some stupid guy. i just hold the guitar and ask chan. what is this hole in the guitar for? then that guy shouted. OEI. u touch touch touch and knock knock knock my guitar without permission . idiot=.=
then ashidiq over there laughing like mad. lols. =.='' then after that we left. i go arcade awhile ( space taken up) waited and waited till no choice go bowling. hahas
go bowling at marina. caught up with seniors+girls.
bowling was retarded. alll bowl like mad=.=
i am tired lah. lols. hahas after that we go lan. girls go have food
then me and ian got bored at lan. so i go arcade. played with this guy, won 3 lost 2 ( total 5 games)
hahas-=/ then girls came arcade. they wann me go shopping with them -.- but they just window shopping lah. lols. xD so ok lors. go walk le. go into lan. dragged all the guys out , bullied siyi and jia yi . alot of them forced calvin to confessed to esther. and still got blah blah=.= too bad ian not there. if not got another victim. x)
tiring ah. and we went bk.... lols after eat we slowly walk to esplnade. go there play abit then go back. hahas...

now at home le. ANDDD SI MIN !!! !! !! ! !! u damn shit one. lols. u blogged before i reached home. PLAY CHEAT. but my post's still longer then yours : D
x) takecares everyone.
and p.s. to all the smss prefects,
I DON'T LIKE SI MIN..=.=
`alvinkang;

just a song;

2006-09-03T21:29:00.000-07:00

i am wondering how many people will take for granted. their friendships.. maybe this is the song yeah..

Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget.
I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget
I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me thereA beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you
I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forgetI'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you
So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me thereA beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you and things we used to do

yellowcard; oneyear,sixmonths
alvinkang;

funny day ah

2006-09-03T07:12:00.000-07:00

lol my skin has changed. might look better: D
cos now i am addicted to YELLOWCARD<3 hahas-
hahas- didnt blog for 2 days. it's being boring after the sunburns=.= i feel so shit. hahas. yeah
nothing to do. nothing to play. what is this man. so nothing interesting to blog about,
i just went out. to downtown east nothing much. came home early
i am tired yeah. hahas=D i want another outing x)

anyways i shall end off here.

my birthday's in 12 days time. hahas.
and my wish is. my wish is... cannot say.x)
alvinkang;

sentosa!

2006-09-02T00:45:00.000-07:00

hahas- 1st sept;
today is a friday. sentosa trip was great yeah. met some new friends. especially if they chased me around the beach. hahas- yeah.
i got a big sunburn patch on my back. so pain=.='' we did alot of fun games in sentosa.
yeah. played in the water for very long. especially after all the games. hahas-
today was really great hahas- sunburn so painT_T
i would really like to pinpoint some person,
SIMIN. that crazy MANLY woman. bleaqx. hahas- yeah.
she made me so tired yesterday. she chased me i chased her around sentosa.=.= throwing sand all over the place. hahas
i so long nv go sentosa. zzz. alot of changes alr=.= hahas-
the trip was super fun. i drank alot of salt water. so saltish.
really hope i will meet this ppl again yeah. to play together(:
hahas- i guess if i become board. i'll organize it again yeah. hahs. (:
alvinkang;

hahas-_-

2006-08-31T00:11:00.000-07:00

30th
hahas- today we did IMT yeah. lols. i got 2/2o for the test. abit weird. shoot till very shit one lah. must be very GUZAI then can get one. hahas- really hope can get marksman nxt year (:

31st
brr- today so cold. ahas-
31staugust!(: holidays and teacher day's eve. hahs-x)
tiring ah. got a prefect camp last night. did alot of fun thing. didn't slp till 5am in the morning. then i slept like a pig=.=''
hahas- we played soccer nonstop,basketball nonstop and we played stupid things nonstop.haha!
then today teacher's day i super tired. ahahs-=.='' dumbness. nvm.=X shall wish teachers reading this(will have none lah=.=) happy teacher's day=D

recently;
hahs- i joined a funny band.with all my goodfriends.=D jolyn+gang
met a new friend(: gerald.! hahas- dummy lah he=.=
i guess jolyn + gang spurred me on a little. hahas- >.<
my result slips!! couldn't believe it. all my subject all almost failing still can get 2 As
1 is DnT. the other is Lit. .
i got
1 A1,1 A2, 0 b3,1 b4, 2 c5, 1 c6, 1 d7, 1 e8, 1 f9
nice combination eh=D hahs just no b3 sadT_T

i am contented with this result if i have it in the end of year alr. =.= hahas-
i am a HAPPY-GO-LUCKY boy=D
i think that jolyn+gang will be the bestest bestest group of GIRL. friends i will have in my secondary life.
so NOISY.so CRAZY. so FUN .
hahas- camp is making me have a headache. i am still wondering about alot of things that's happening in my life yeah.it is making me go mad . hahas- what is going to HAPPEN to me soon? next year?
hahas- not my will. it's GOD'S

`alvinkang;-

alvinkang-

2006-08-25T07:36:00.000-07:00

so long nv blog le=.=''
yeah i know recently too tired ah. today is friday. not a bad day. i got to wear a once in a secondaryschoollife-time NCC number o1 uniform. so nice. yeah. xD
hahas- and it is super neat. yet super heavy=.=''

hahas cos the shirt buttons all heavy heavy one. make of metal.lol.
yeah and today so we did rehearsal. tmr's the big day.=D my batch did 1 line of honour alr. now is the 2nd one. hahas- lols. so proud x) yeah. anyways i did rehearsal then wore my half.u. hahas- and yeah damn funny didnt know how my junior sch principal saw me in uniform. forgotten alr. when going home that time she told me i look very nice in my uniform-.- ''

hahas- and yeah we did rehearsal. wore the uniform to do some drills. kinda shiok lah. so nice and marching. and hanrong!! he wear number1 top prefects pants.. madm said he look like= oversea postman!
LOL. hahas funny ah and he look damn funny lah agreeded x)
anyways today is the best ncc training ever. wearing number1 .xD

it is a good chance yeah. hope somehow some other parts may wear it sooner or later lah. hahas-
end here-
alvinkang;

pulau ubin;

2006-08-20T02:11:00.000-07:00

hahs- saturday was fun(: woke up at 640; then i went to meet ky and the rest of some of the part Bs=.=

hahas- anyways i bought newspaper and blah blah - went to meet them and sng + i ate my breakfast there. hahas=.= fish burger.bleaqx.=/

haha then we went back to sch then go meet sir and the rest of the ppl that are going to pulau ubin.=.=''
lucky i still remember how to ride a dumb bike=X
hahas then we took the bus that always bring us around for ncc trips to changni jetty . took a boat to pulau ubin then we saw mr gabriel=.=' nice and funny guy.

when we reached there first thing to get is the bikes=.='' get alr cycle cycle around. then go to the forest there stop at some places. lost sir.jasper and jeremy cos they bought gavin back=.='' he dunno how to ride bike one like shit lah. lol. then we went to pluck rambutan blah blah blah. i was with ky all the way man=.=''
ahhahas. =D

anyways i speed on my bike but no injuries one lah. cos i pro(:
hahahahahahas and then i learned to climb a tree=.=''

yeah. haha dunno them lah. lols. neelash + me climb tree abit funny one=.=''
who cares, we cycle alot then we went back to have lunch=D
then rain abit at 1++ then stop. started cycling agian then we now went to find the sugarcanesx)
my favourite now yeah yeah. so cool kaes. xD
hahas=.=''

i addicted to sugarcane yeah. then we went cycling arnd somemore to a mountain.haha! we climbed a mountain=.='' no lah haha is a hill.xD

then climb alr we come down gogogo. =.=''
then we cycle arnd alot till leg pain. we also cycled on grass and on hill=.='' like super tiring kaes.
hahas

dunno what tlaking me also. lols=.='' and after that we went back to the 'village' and changed up then go back to sg. hahas then ltr we go potong pasir meet the sng. i was chewing the cane everywhere=.=''

hahas. then like that. we found the funny lan shop in pp.=.='' ahahas
xD

ok lah shall endhere;

alvinkang;

recently.

2006-08-16T02:36:00.000-07:00

hah. long time no blog.=X died blog. still finding the super dumb tagboard. it is still somewhere up the blog.=.=
hahs. we lost to RI both Cdiv. lol. =.= rugby and hockey both i there. both also lost. sian lah.HAH. -.-
RUGBY:13.12 Sa lost.
HOCKEY:2.2 draw. then extra time. o.o draw. then ltr last one penalty.!! 4.3!=.= lost.

sad. isit cos i not playing? hahas. -.- so sad yeah. and i just like being so tired nowadays. today i damn tired lah. i kana caught by SBStransit=.=''
lols. for doing smting near the lrt station=.=

hahas. nvm bout that yeah. and i super sian alot of marks failing but i hope DnT is good lah.~ =.=

sad. i lazy blog somemore le larhs. hahas. shall stop here.
`alvin;

friday

2006-08-12T01:27:00.000-07:00

hahas. okays dunno what to say now. now i got a totally new skin and i lost the tagboard cos of skin cannot locate the taggie.-_-'' look arnd the top u see a toking arnd thingy
that's suppose to be for the blog.hahas .lols-_-''

damn weird lah.lols. dunno lah
friday 's a interesting day yeah.lols. first got chinese- everyone talking nonstop.lols. then got lit; look at the funny comics then laugh. then recess . then english that one not good. cos the teacher nag. hahahhas
lousy monkey-_-
erms then after that is music abit retarded all the indian music
then ltr is science. same old thing. lols slp talk slp talk-_-''

erms then ltr got ncc. but i nv go but instead me go to hockey ! we won ah. northland to 5.1xDd
cos got PRASHAN-_-''

hahas. yeah. erms then still got i went to talk to jaswin abit touch up on how long we nv talk le.hahas
-_-'' he is interesting and nice. nt like his bro. the manbir. goodfornth. lols-_-

hahas. yeah end today's post le=]

alvinKANG;

Back in action?o_O so long nv blog le

2006-08-09T21:35:00.000-07:00

hahas.! so long nv blog yeah. too tired to blog. too much dotaing and mapling-_-''

hahas. did quite a number of stuff and had fun here and there.
to me national day was 'great and wonderful' cos i didnt watch it but was playing dota and hero seige like nobody's business-_-
common tests over. class may decide to have a chatlet.xD
but dunno how first lah. it's time to kill some ppl then. cos in pasir ris. that guy is in my playground. haahahas.-_-''

hahas. it's being days yeah. i am single now.hahas >.<
bleaqx. anyways to the ppl who anyhow tag. they are trying to be dumb. i can see the difference between the real and the fake. where got so stupid talk till like that one sia. u so dumb.-_-'' hahas.

anyways for the time i had was fun. now there may be a new beginning.
lols. i currently hate sch cos of some people there yeah.
and i love sch cos of some ppl.
hahas..

now i got a new 'proficency' in a new 'job' xD. with jon .l lalals~ guess what then(:

hahas(:

2006-07-19T03:19:00.000-07:00

hees. so long nv blog le.
now i got addiction to writing alot alot of letters.
ahas.xDd yeah.
cos of her.. and anyways. recently i met her to bring her home. yeah.
so fun. in the train. (:
guess what happened then.hehes-.
x)) anyways i am boredd. =X today had a stupid day. but still okays lah. so what if it's stupid. i love what happened after sch lah. hahas(:
yeah. then went back to simei i go pasirris.. then ltr i go ntuc buy drink and i go buy muah chee. LOL.
eat le take bus go home.ahahs
boring day lah.x)

yeah. okays shall end here then (:
alvin<3 her
2oo6 copyrighted.(:
xDd

hmM-

2006-07-15T06:37:00.000-07:00

lols. today's saturday. woke up and went to play com awhile then ltr i go change up to ncc uniform go sch=X
today got prize giving then all the ug part Bs have to go form the line of honour. smting like that =X
hahahs. after that go mac with nick raph and des. saw mel sherm and the other guy forgot who=X
ahahs.xDd
then ltr i go home change up go meet james and his brother go play lan there. lols.xDd
play till 7 my mother fucking called me 3 times to go home. i dunn care lah.xD
then ltr i take bus come home faster then she nag at me like some fuck cos she waiting for me at the lrt. lols the ltr i nv talk frm 9 till now = =''
which is like 40 mins?o_o
ahahahahs. xDd fucked up mum.
nag bout useless stuff that i will nv do de. lols
= ='' anyways shall end here then xDd
`alvin<3her.(:
2oo6 copyrighted.xDd

fuck lah today

2006-07-13T04:53:00.000-07:00

friendship is a problem.
especially with the phrase i learned through alot of teachings. Love Thy Enemies.
i cant love them. even though i tried. such fuckers cannot be friends though.
today i had a bad day. it was our 2nd week. then i got into a verbal fight with my friends. cannot believe.=X
then no one came to ask me was i alright in chinese class. till maths when mr tan came talk to me.
lols. my dao mode really the fucking dao. zzz.
anyways the biggest fucker of all that didnt own up insulting me. was that fucker. guess who then. the enemy i tried to love.
then they change say after insulting. what the fuck , he and another guy came and say u dunn belive i was just asking for the truth. ok at first they asked the truth i said no. [the truth la] then he fucking come say wann buy what fucking fragrance tissue or what cum tissue. fucking assholes.
after i am into my shorts. i have alot of stuff to settle. way alot.
studies . the fuckers . and the fucker that me and my godbro and frens have to settle.
so much fuckers on earth.
then i didnt get to meet her today): 2nd week le.
haiya what a bad day.
alex had a bad talk. he said non christians shall burn in hell. what nonsense.
cannot believe that.

was my brother. now's a unknown. i am badly impacted by the class.

alvin<3 her.(:
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sad.T_T

2006-07-11T05:51:00.000-07:00

today was i thought was gonna be a fun day. but it didnt turn out quite well.
zzz. i overslept today>< then ltr i go sch to find out there's no meeting(can sleep more lors)
sians.=X then ltr we had some mimmilem car race thingy lah .aahahas. i came in top 5. = = 4th for spd catergory. was fun lah the whole thing then when i suppose go back to the class that time i found out that i lost my stupid bag. damn sad lah. i suspecting someone.>< and is my old enemy i tried to 'love' in the way of god. lumpy if u hear this it is good. lols(:
then ltr i went to do some room cleaning for the prefects room . inside v.dusty.
and
i didnt get to meet her><><><><>< T_T sad.

then ltr i came home go out again buy stationaries. zzz.
now at home doing my own stuff. haiya.
hope tmr is a better day then~

alvin<3her
copyrightedd 2oo6 wor.xD

gab today. haiya.xDd

2006-07-09T06:15:00.000-07:00

today v.sian.
gab came to my hse. before that i was doing dnt work. he came that time i mapling. lols.=X
then me and gab play alot and we wrestle and do work.LOL!.
= ='' aiya then ltr we play abit dota. gab kana kill once he dunn wann play le= ='' 2 insane ai like that 1 time die also nvm de lah.
then i play 2 easy 1 normal. lols. noob sia meT_T i total thrash them lah.xDd. i am still noob thoug`T.T haahs.(:
then ltr i and gab i follow him go lrt. made him go to 711 first.~=]
then make him run for the train for no reason!.xD HAHA!. = =''
sian lah. then i come home play com maple then now gnna do some work and slp lors.xDd.x))

it's how my life change after meeting you all people. i have changed to a more hopeful person. a more cheerful person. and rather a more meaningful life. (: who is it?. it's for me to know and for you to find out. hahs. it is not just 1 person. but rather 5 close people to me.(: guess who thenxD

people change from time to time. i have changed my attitude towards my mum and uncle. now i am just. more dunn care attitude alr. and yeah. more dao. and i got no dad . that makes me more. strayed. it's okays. i am just stating a fact. i do not mind people reading it. and yeah i feel bad. and hurt, for all my changes in my attitude towards my studies.. i do not know. what to do now then. alot of people wants me to be able to work hard. but i do not know, what's my life turning into.
should i run. or should i fight?.

alvinKANG_

= =''

2006-07-07T01:51:00.000-07:00

today was a great day.lols. it would have been greater if i met her.><
then first thing in the morning i overslept! xDd
zzz. took a taxi. almost died. = ='' the taxi so fast then ltr got one taxi want go into my lane . just like that.lols. sudden heavy braking.><"
then go sch. do my stuff. afterwards got the dnt. lols. my car i think fastest.xDd lols.
ahahas. sianded.T.T
then ltr go find my cg first. lol. but i didnt go.
my shepard talked to me. so saddening. mean like. he told me alot of stuff.lols.
then ltr go meet crazy womens = = '' dionne and jolyn and 2 other girls. met willie in ps. lols. and some sec1 guys. xDd
then ltr we go eat long johns. after that.my shoe the soles came out.LOLs.
we go arnd hunting for super glue.lols. then ltr we buy le go macdonald's outside talk talk waste time. lols.
go down mrt that time.
ahahs. saw someone. = = '' he was hugging a girl and were very intimate. HAHA. = = ltr i didnt know who was he. i just walked down shouting at the crazy womens. = ='' then ltr that guy just said.OEI. ALVIN KANG. = =''
i was like who was that. saw his face ah.LOL. was HANRONG!.HAHAHAHAHAHHA
couldnt believee it. my own senior. so sadd . . .xD

kidding. then ltr go back jolyn mad one. go wave at some stranger.LOL. siao char bo. = =''
then i take bus home lors. like that.ahahs. shall update somemore nonsense ltr.(:

alvin<3HER.(:
2oo6.copyrighted blog!. alvinKANG_

zzz

2006-07-05T03:19:00.000-07:00

AHH.so long never blog le.sch reopened le.xDd. super sian.
today went out to ps. with someone.xDd. so fun. but yet got some distraction lah. ahahs.
so not that fun anymore le= =''
xDd. theen ltr i today in sch so sian. today lessons super duper wuper boring.= ='' tommorow i can skip some lessons le.WOOHOOS.xDd.
super cool. so long then.(:
shall start to blog once again.xDd.
alvinKANG_

one month-

2006-06-16T12:14:00.000-07:00

it's being a month- it's a wednesday.
guess what happened-=]
`xiaoKANG_

sunday

2006-06-12T04:39:00.000-07:00

sunday! went out with vinson, that day not so good, the intialD i abit lose skills le= =''
then ltr me and vinson go look for hp, i am ready to change to a 2nd hand Z800I, wahahs=X
then i just need fix my camera, =X.
lalalas~ then ltr gab and yy go my hse, i cooked noodles for them,lols. then ltr so sian ah= =
they go home le i nth to do lor
lols.
= =''
lame posts-
`xiaoKANG

HK trip= =''

2006-06-12T04:04:00.000-07:00

i went for a hk trip, so long and long 4 days. like mad-
first day- forced to sleep before the trip=X
then ltr when to airport at 4, wahahs- = ='' we go talk talk then ltr we go eat breakfast before going off-
wahhas- plane flight was 3 hours=X i was like gosh headache in there= =
then i reached there alr took a bus go eat- = =''then we go hotel room sia. there so shiok, first day nth much to do.
wahahs-
2nd day,we went to a colleage, kinda fun there.hehs- (: alot of stuff to do there, after that we went for lunch, then ltr we went to climb a mountain and then we go to some place forgot le= ='' i think is wishing tree ah
wahahs-=X
then ltr we go eat dinner then we go shopping
but then we kinda lost melvyn lim, a loser then he kp my grp, whole grp kana by teacher=X
siao eh
then ltr go back hotel do work slp wake up,
we go to some funny places first ah
then ltr we go to the police museum, fell asleep most of the time in the bus, then we go mass shopping, then play arnd mass shop play mass shop = =''
mad eh
4th day quite sian le come back sg lors.not alot to talk bout also
hahas=X
`xiaoKANG-
it's just a wish, it may not come true, i hope it will.-

blog= =

2006-06-05T06:44:00.000-07:00

i shall blog for 5 days-
friday to tueday=X
friday got ncc camp . had torture and have to eat dinner at 12am in the morning= =
before eating got some games to get food= =
on saturday. was very relaxed swimming 4 hours- madness got sunburn on the shoulders
then got lunch wahahhas-
eat alr go to hall slp abit then ltr got some teaching thingys lah!= =''
till 6pm then go eat
then ltr we all play nightwarfare! kinda not nice not as nice as the march camps one
hahas- then ltr we play free for all vinson keep pouring water on me = =
then ltr we go bath eat supper and slp
wahahs
= =''
nxt morn wake up go eat breakfast- 2 times somemore= =''
first in sch next in macs-
lols
then go home slp then ltr gab and mar go my hse wake me up to go out lOLloL= =''
then ltr we go punggol mar sis's hse play pool i did quite ok for the first time
then ltr me scaratch table
then mar sis not happy
at night i go home alr i go dte = =
now josh kor help me get akagi 2.21.9xx
usui wet get 2.49.7xx
= =
xD so pro
then ltr today tuesday me and jon go play with coke and mentoes- it explodes okays(:
hehs- so fun
then go swimming
go home le go shopping buy alot of clothes= =''
xD
now i am talking to gabriel so dumb
waahahash

all i wish . all i wish is to be with you . always by your side(:
alvin

DRUMS-

2006-06-01T01:14:00.000-07:00

i forgot blog yesterday. now only i blogging siao eh- = =
take it such as wednesday is today lah
today i woke up at 6am. siao eh the dumb alarm woke me up = =
lalaals
ahahahas- then i play come till 8 then i go sch
got this guitar lesson kinda dumb though- but me and moses run away to ps first
11 o clock we over there eat then we play abit of arcade- as usual=X then ltr me and moses go drum classes
at 12 lah the guy
me and moses called 'handsome beng' cos his name sounds like
is a funny guy
LOL!HHAHAHAHS= =
diaos- =X
then ltr me and moses was like joking in class=X then ltr we finish class alr go ARCADE. AGAIN=X wahhahs-siao eh = =
then ltr after this we go home.= =
i went to sch at 730. then ltr i go home dao everyone-
as usual=X
that's my day lah

i feel closer each and everyday- or isit further?.
`xiaoKANG

happierx)

2006-05-28T08:30:00.000-07:00

today- i woke up at 8!madness = =' slept for 7hours- not enough sleep for alvinKANGS-= =''
then after that i started playing com
play play play= =
till 11 my uncle ask me study- i ignore it as usual then ltr he left = =''
then i comtinued mapling- didnt notice my % was geting higher and higher-LOLS!
= = then ltr gabriel told me he wanted to come over-lols.
then he come over lah . i told him go thammgam- HE MIRICALLY FOUND HIS WAY THERE!lols
then he went to 711. lols. then when i going 711 that time i saw DUMB JON(: , and clare- (not dumb-)
lols.
then ltr i cope abit of noodles frm jon.lols. i go prata shop with jon and gabriel- hehs-
jon came ltr btw- = = i treated my poor lil jon brother a prata- considering what he treated me last time.hehs- it's treating spree lah!hehs-
then ltr i cope egg pratas frm gabriel.lols.
then i bought gabriel thr the long cut to my hse. really 2o mins sia- so long= =
walk till dying alr-
the first thing gabriel said when he entered my hse is . WAH SO SCARY = =. lols
then i go wrestle gabriel in my bedroom.lols. OBVIOUSLY is I win lah- hehs- x)
then ltr go mum's shop cut hair. cut that time gabriel take alot of pictures- lols.
then my hair super duper little left= =
xD
then ltr ltr me and gabriel go to sengkang! walk to the super duper small pasa malam = =''
we bought ma chee to eat.lols after that i go arcade-
managed to break a lil' rec = =''
then ltr i go eat kfc- then i go meet marriane. sent gabriel 5 songs on the phone- lols!
then was like super long lah != =''
xD
after that i went home alr-
so sian
i was happy when i received a testimonial- usually i just accept but this testimonial means alot to me(:
u changed my life-(:
`xiaoKANG

yawns-

2006-05-27T09:22:00.000-07:00

today - a boring day
attended church as usual-
found out who's my shephard=D
donavan lum!=D
lumpy lumpy-
lols. then went foodcourt- then bid farewell to one guy i dunno one-
just go anyways:)
then after that go eat again
lols. then ltr i go home alr-
=.=''
pathetic day
today is the 10th day-when will i wake up?
`xiaoKANG™

last day-

2006-05-26T04:59:00.000-07:00

time has passed.it's being 9 days-
today's the last day of school.x)
so fun-hehs-
i went home and played dota with gabriel. obviously lose lah-_-''
hehs- then ltr i went to school for ncc.quite tiring. i was upset on my trip to sch-
hahas- a sms i will remember in my heart-
only gabriel knows-hehs-
i do not know why. gabriel's my friend. a great friend. best so far. if i didnt meet him.will i be what am i today?.
even though it's for around 3 to 4 months when we knew each other-
we are closer then brothers-
ncc was tiring. backed home nth to do.
i really really want you to know that-
i miss you.from my heart- with my emotions-
i will say. i love you.
without fear-
`xiaoKANG

movie-

2006-05-25T05:00:00.000-07:00

today-events-
go school.first thing in morning people already wanna fight me.
but afterwards i got some programs. sexual education program- aka. no apologies program
it went on the whole day.still quite fun-hee-
and after that went to gabriel's hse to change into his clothes- his clothes quite nice to wear
then me and gabby go to TP entertainment centre.hahas- meet marriane. she got her 3G phone alr- not bad not bad-
then we waited for clarence to come.heh-
we watched Xmen3. quite nice show.
after that went to buy handphone pouches-_-''
me and gab got the same one.
ltr go gabriel's hse get bag,changed up and then i wrestle with him awhile.ltr i go home.
mother called 3 times before i reached home. asked her not to call.fuck sia-
then ltr i told her i went to gabriel's hse so come home ltr abit.then she ask why ltr i told her i go change clothes
then she not happy come kao pei me once i reach home
fucker kanina sia-
i go bath also cannot bath in peace sia-
then ltr come out i quarrel with her lah fuck fuck fuck
she say what i cannot friends all bad influnce with me
then i tell her everything i fought my justice and heart out.insulting my friends for no reason.is fucked up and stupid-
all she did was care about my results-
i do not know what to do.
end school? leave house? suicide?
stress and pressure crawling over me when my mother talk to me.always about school work.
and my exams
and school
and homework
and exams
all she ever cared about. those stupid stuff.
better off died
i wanted to start over a new leaf and study all i can.i know i always have friends behind me supporting me.
but
now i am not sure.
not even she can make me study hard.
she only know that my friends is all bad-
leave comments on taq board.
today is a screw up day.except the movie part.
`xiaoKANG™

not say a good day-

2006-05-24T04:25:00.000-07:00

the day was okays-
today was cross country- and i was freaking tired today--
cross country i ran and ran with kaiyuan=Dthe cute idiot-_-''
and i got 3rd in class-SADLY not top 2o for C.div.
aiming aiming-
then after that. gabriel.YY.melvin.jerome and 'bobby- we wanted to walk to toa payoh
wanted to lose bobby- but cannot lah
the first taxi driver was FUCKED up lah- dumb piece of shit him.
the nxt one at least not that bad lah-hehs-
we mananged to lose bobby after melvin 'quarreled' with him.lols
then we took a taxi to kovan then we go eat.KFC-
saw some losers frm 2c and junyang-(all losers) except pang zhi hui.the idiot- cheat my feelinqs hang out with losers=.=''
after that i went to play bowling.then the losers and PANG zhi hui
followed us there-dumb idiots-
but in the end still okays lah- just that i want to kill them. but managed to be stopped.
hehs-
then i was supposed to meet her but guess that i didnt meet her bahs-
she wanted to be with her friends instead-
didnt eat lunch- hungry now
now i shall go off for dinner=D
posted at 7.3op.m.
24.5.2oo6.
xiaoKANG™

xiaoKANG!™

2006-05-23T04:41:00.000-07:00

backed in action for blogger.gone for a lonq time-
xD
so fun luhs- bwahhhas-
sorry for not updatinq it so lonq alr.anyways i am so freaking tired-
it's being long since i am so tired alr- time for me to rest- and to prepare for studies- for i am taking another step higher
into the air-

there's also a new beginning of a story for me.
i really hope.
i can make it last.while it can.
`xiaoKANG™

mixed up in a mixer?

2006-03-31T07:10:00.000-08:00

life's weird this week.ther's more homework.AKA.more stress.my time is coming near.and i dunno what to do=/
ther's something bugging my c0nsience f0r dunno what.shall not tell=X
ppl who know also will kn0ws.the pr0b began t0day i think?
i guess my life's just a small little joke.that jumbles up in a mixer.and i am tired=X
i feel i shall quit sch..haha.maths supplementary test i got 11 .1/2 f0r it.saddening...
added in a song called breathing.lols.
i sianx larhx...dunno what to say le.
the end is near.for me.
a white flag will be hung high to say i will surrender to life!
i do not know what to do bahx.haha.i am crapping forever and ever...
sch life's short this week..=X

hahas.end here bahx
alvin

life's a joke.

2006-03-28T04:03:00.000-08:00

i still haven recovered frm that incident.too fast to even see it..i needed attention.a fellow partner.school was the only thing i can relate to when i am sad.i want to stay in school!i enjoyed being a prefect.i aim to serve my life being a prefect.am i destinated to be one?i hope so.i want to show my fullest potential to my friends that i can be a great and firm prefect and a great friend.i want them to realise it.i am always pouring out my emotions in blogs.so do not be suprised if i get too vulgar.i am not trying to brag but 1E ,the class i took last term,said i was a better and friendier prefect.they said kavi was too stiff with them..i really cant help it.i want to take 1E again..time seems to be slow and fast.it passed quickly.4months passed without noticing it,a series of events,too fast for me to notice it.i really want time to be fast.i wanna grow up.it sucks being a little kid that is directed around by a mother.i really want time to be fast.too bad.life's a joke.

sad.=/

2006-03-25T06:13:00.000-08:00

10.11.05-25.3.06
end of story.

SCHOOL LIFE!

2006-03-24T03:10:00.000-08:00

today wasn't so fun.th0ugh g0t science and DnT..c0s i was sad today.2 things.one is sad c0s my dahh- she very sad-=/
next is danyal.he thinks he is the best.in reality.no one's in the year 05/06! new prefects is the best..danyal goes around telling everyone that i got caned.mr tan apologised to me cos he didn't know i dunno how to do the maths question..then danyal goes around and tell everyone bout me.i dunn care bout the cane.it's my image..i know my classmate will not spread.they are trustable.everything changed when danyal came to my class.i knew this would happen!he is starting to snatch away all my friends.i rather go NA then to stay in my class.danyal did alot of stuff to me before.he is trying to snatch away my friendships in the class.why must this happen?danyal is snatching my reality.my life.but i found out.when friends are your friends.they are forever your friend.true in the heart.starting of the year.i took danyal in as my friend.now he is taking advantage.he dosen't want me to be popular in class!he wants to be popular.trying to get attention is all he does.davindar,moses,hwang,ong all my old friends that i really have trust and true friendship with them..he is taking it all away.today when i was very dao in school.in science class..ppl like moses,sherman,christian,nico,edgal,james,marcus,jia sheng,terrence,alex,wei feng all these people.i took advatage of them!they cared bout me!
the rest?!! i took them as good friends.ALL never came to bother to ask me why am i like this!?
what's this?WHY is this happening?!! DANYAL!
wants to take it all out on me.the next question is that if i am suppose to lost control of myself.danyal will not have a good ending.so what?!
if i get kicked out of prefects.danyal is taking too much out of me..i cant take it..he always play around in classes.while i just talk and i admit sometimes i get too hyper active.everything around me goes wild!SO WHAT
danyal's misbehaving seems to be just trying to attract attention from people!I CANT TAKE THIS!DANYAL IS ALL OUT TO TAKE ME OUT.!i fail maths.he critisizes,i tio cane he critisizes,what else does he want from me!?kill me?!i am just being too nice aen't i.?i just feel like .take out all my anger on someone.i cant keep it all inside.mayb jon can help..but i am not sure.he cant be with me forever!i know he's my best bro around.BUT DANYAL IS SOMEONE HE DOSENT KNOW!
and i am not the type that goes around to bash people up,i always punch ppl in a joking manner..but then if i get too angry..danyal cant stop me!i have my will to support me.nothing more.everything that revovles around me.danyal is taking it aways.!what if he just snatch my loved ones away?i cant just let him do what he wants!i will just take it all out with him one day.i swear i will..nothing gonna stop me..i will fight for my friendship back..i cant let him critisize me forever.i would not want to talk to danyal!never gonna be his friend anymore.i rather have him as a enemy then as a friend..

i cant take him anymore..

why?

2006-03-22T05:32:00.000-08:00

dear!why u so sad!
u sad i sad also okays?u wann call me anytime after school and i will talk with u okays!hope u will read it okays!
IMY!
INU!
IWU!
ILY!(:

that's a msg u send me now i am sending it backx)
!sd ao luo y ev 0l i
sms me when u are in doubt and sorrow.
i will be your light.
if u think u walk alone.think again.
i am always ther for u
i will give u a leaning shoulder.
if u need to cry. i will console u
everything we do.we do it with love together(:

hand in hand we will write our story..
it's being long isin't it?
i wann u to be with me.
longer then this.
i love u loads!

here's another msg u send me
This is the starting of our story.
we will fill
every page,
every line,
every chapter
with out love.
we will write it together.
hand in hand.
i love u

teachers?

2006-03-21T02:18:00.000-08:00

why do people like to bully teachers?aren't they out to teach and make friends with students?
some is out to make a living?just imagine yourself in the shoes of the teachers..haha.i think u all will just shiver lah..and when u try to get the class to be qiuet then they dunn wann u sure get angry de bahs..hahas..
mayb it's life..i coolen down so far from the incident with my mum and i got myself a new specs.a newbalance thick frame cool looking specs white and yellowx)
so nice okays!
x))))
haix.ok larhx.end my blogging here nothing else to say le..><
`rkospear

mothers suck?

2006-03-17T09:38:00.002-08:00

bloody hell.my mother damn fuck up today larhs okays?she nag me all day ask me do homework..then keep bragging about my cousin what play some fucking game VR10 bloody hell wat type of fucked up game is that then is like fuck lah then she say wat competition can win i cannot..lols.fuck lah she only care bout my cousins not me then even if she care she can only care about my studies..so what if i fail..i dunn care i dont give a damn.she never see my potiential..only about school life..she dont care bout anything.like she only give a shit about me...i already tell shaun le that if i want i can leave house i dunn give a fuck even if the police come after me i also dunn care boy's home dunn care i dunn care bout my life cos no one cares then i also can just like go kill myself..aka suicide.so what if i become great in school?i am popular with the sec1s.so what?dunn give a damn lah.they just wanna disturb me.they dunn give a shit to me.no one is giving me anything on earth..so what if everyone thinks i am rich?and if i am lucky?no one sees it.i totally suck okays.it is damn sad.my sports sucks my everything sucks..studies is like shit.no one cares..everyone just sees me as a cheerful person but no one can see me or imagine me as a sad person because they only know me as a nice person to bully with...
i cannot be outstanding.i am not famous.i am shit in school.no teacher cares.nothing...even if i die no one will care..it is my mother only sees me as a study machine nothing else.i hate studies.i wann go normal if i can i already set out my plans if i go normal.i just try and then i go to poly 2nd year can drive le...haha..ya..ite so what..i just pass everything and go through a normal life stiill..jon and me have this pact on who can be the most successful person but i think all the odds will go to him..i totally suck compared to him..he have fame,he have friendliness ..to me i am a loser..jon has everything.rich...like his mother will give him the phone he wants.mine?never..my mother just want me to have a cheap phone.she dosen't understand..i want a big memory space phone.not a stylo phone..i love photography and videotaking..no one cares bout that...i am worst.in class i have bad results and everything..i dunn care le.i am just trying to pass to give my mother face to tell my cousins that i got pass.everything sucks.i suck in com and everything.initialD i drive 2 yrs le.still suck like hell.no good records.ppl play in 1 yr time they also got world rec.i suck man..i got no skill for anything.i am corrupted...i want to sing and compose songs..i tell my friends they laugh at me..although i am frm single family and my mother copes to earn money for me i still cant cope with studies.no siblings..nothing..at least people like sarra is in 2a.me?2D.no hope..2 DUMB..i cant be anything..jon has hope to set up a church..i got nothing.i cant drive nor i can take mechanics.nothing.IT i also cant get it.even a NT person has more hope then me...nothing can help me..too hopeless alr..now jon is drifting away frm me he is not like last time where he is friendly and always hang out with me @5pm..my mother dosen't understand..i need company..she thinks jon and shaun are bad company.then she dosen't want me to hang out with them..i think jon will think that i am lame also..everyone thinks i am lame..ppl always see me smile..but inside me.i am crying.always..

take this song for refrence of my life..
"Nobody's Home"
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way, She felt it everyday.And I couldn't help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?Too many, too many problems.Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.She wants to go home, but nobody's home.It's where she lies, broken inside.With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.Be strong, be strong now.Too many, too many problems.Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.She wants to go home, but nobody's home.It's where she lies, broken inside.With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.Her dreams she can't find.She's losing her mind.She's fallen behind.She can't find her place.She's losing her faith.She's fallen from grace.She's all over the place.Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.It's where she lies, broken inside.With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh ohShe's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

....end of blogging today..
siginingoff.
alvinkang...

t0day g0 sch.and arcade..l0lx.

2006-03-16T04:19:00.000-08:00

today w0ke up kinda early..7am><
g0 sch f0r prefect's 0uting..l0lx.
sianx.then g0 sch that time we play around run here run there then suddenly start thr0wing b0mbs.(waterb0mbs..not the type 0sama use..lOLs)
then i d0dge alot and i tio hit the MOST like nightware fare in march camp
JIM and the NCOS all aim me de><
l0lx.such a famous target f0r waterb0mb?><
mayb..
then later we had some mini amazing race then after that we changed up then we kinda ti0 f0rced to drink s0me HORRIBLE substances aka-raw egg yolk and unknown substances..lol
then we started off to go lan..but then we go lunching first then ltr we go lan play play play then got debriefing then later after that ian and me headed for the arcade
we went to 711 then when ian and me go in MRT we saw prashan and brandon walking then later prashan say follow us go play..
we top up till $30 to play tgth l0ls.
l0lx.then prashan in arcade siaosiao one..lols.
yar.
then later i go eileen's hse to dl maple for her..so lag the com><
lols!
sians lah
....
ok lah.
blog til here..
sigin off.
alvinkang=)

today's event.15.03.06! MAPLE AQUA ROAD!

2006-03-15T07:12:00.000-08:00

not much to say todays.but then the maple today come out aqua road..kinda weak all the monster...lvl 63 bandit can kill them easily...lols.not as competitive as werewolves and all..lols.
then today my day was kinda boring.went to c0mpass libary.the arcarde one initialD machine steering wheel is out..l0ls...cann0t play de.><
maple kinda boring though` then i go out play soccer with my neighboursXD
so funxD madness ok the game!
oh yar.this morning esvaran sms me say he found the escape theme park ticket?
sianx
n0w j0sh sent me 2 initialD w0rld rec vide0s played by himself.s0 PRO!
usui wet-rx8-2.59.742 shoruma -2.59.1xx...
he still say so slow..l0lx.
sad f0r him i think he my g0d?mayb bahx.but nvm he still go0d frenx bahx...lols.
i admire him but cannot treat him till i worship him lah but then sad l0rx.
bahahs.
can he be my g0dbr0?
l0lx.dunch kn0ws.

anyways.
sigining 0of.
alvinkangxD

escape theme park.how funny and dumb we were

2006-03-14T10:31:00.000-08:00

today was a normal day.too normal to be.esvaran smsed me and asked me to go escape.i had permission to go out then i met esvaran @ downtown east.we went there like damn happy then we all found out the rides all so long queue and then the thrill rides all gone because of periodical maintainence...lols.then ltr after we are done with the go kart..one game nia we went to xsquare(at least more cooling and funxD) we played some games then being me i went to arcard broke my trueno limit for myself 229=X then ltr we went back that time we were damn POOR..lols.we were forced to drink leftover drink and eat leftover fries...lols.that's how poor we are ..but then after that quite fun we just walk around then eat some food then ok lah go back le lah xD
in bus trip damn bored blah blah blah then go home reach home bath eat play sleep>< lols.ok lah
end my craps le bahs.xD
alvinkang..